09 Apr

Underwhelmed-Overwhelmed

I’ve been so underwhelmed by my workouts lately! I realized that it was time to switch things up. I just completed T20 for the second time and I dreaded going for a third. I wanted to pick a program that was not too long each day, but still gave me a great workout. I settled on Hard Corps just 22 minutes a day, sometimes 32 minutes. The best part, it’s 5 exercises and 3 intervals in 22 minutes, the extra 10 minutes is all Core. I am so in! Day two and I feel great.

I’ve been so overwhelmed with life recently. Sometimes life and all of the ongoing events can just add up. I am super busy at work and on top of that its Tax time! Having a side business means you have to work even after you have worked your 8 hour day. I also applied for a new role at work and have been busy over the past 2 weekends with training to start in this new role. It has also meant homework and presentations. The positive, I stepped out of my comfort zone and I rocked it. One more weekend and I will be ready to roll….that is the hope anyway. You add commute, meals, activities and general family time and I feel like I can’t breath some days. I think the real stress that is weighing heavily on my me right now, is actually my son Logan. Not Logan in particular, but the fact that he will be flying to the last frontier in Ontario to do a 3 week placement as a Fire Crew Ranger! It is the same feeling I had prior to him going away to school, the difference this time is he is going to be a 23 hour drive away, instead of a short hour and a bit. I can’t really express in words what that feels like, which is probably best. I never knew it would be this hard to have a child leave the nest. I never suspected that I would have it touch all aspects of my life.

I can’t let my fears affect everything and everyone around me. I can’t let my mind wonder to the worst thoughts possible just because more than one thing becomes complicated. I need to remember I used to feel this way all of the time, now I just feel this way about every 3 – 4 months…maybe even 6 months. I need to stay calm, do my nightly meditations and remember that I got this. If life wasn’t hard and littered with daily problems that require solving how bored would I be?! I have worked on so many aspects of my life since January 2018. I feel like I am on a steady progression to having all my dreams come true. I work hard, I modify my behaviour to be one of absolute positivity at home and at work. I treat people like I would like to be treated, but I am also realizing that it is okay to be honest with people. It is okay to not agree with someone, and that you can manage it all with kind words and a positive outlook. I am a work in progress and I can do anything!